September 11 revisited

Originally posted on September 11, 2005.

There are a lot of things on my mind tonight, please bare with me. First off, my husband and I just finished watching the documentary of Flight 93 on the Discovery Channel. I didn't expect it to effect me as much as it did. Hearing first hand accounts from family members and hearing the actual calls that the people on board made to loved ones made it more real to me than ever before. It was sad to learn the backgrounds of the 40 men and women who were on that flight. They all seemed like wonderful people, fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, daughters, sons, grandparents, etc. The documentary said that the youngest person on board was a 20 year old college student, yet to me the youngest person on board was a 3 month old fetus who was in the womb of a women who had been trying to get pregnant for 5 years. That really tore me up. Becoming a mother has definitely changed me and anything like that rips at my heart. Obviously, it is horrible that any of these people had to die, no matter what age or background. And seeing re-enactments of what supposedly went on was a little much for me and had me saying to myself to the TV "do this!" or "do that!" and I had to remind myself that this was not a movie for me to yell at the actors and tell them to do what I would do. I couldn't imagine being on that plane. Part of me thinks that I would be so upset and so determined to not die that I would totally kick some a$$ no matter what the cost. But, then part of me thinks that I would just be paralyzed with fear that I wouldn't do anything!

I definitely don't want to end this on a sad note, but I definitely want to remember these people and everyone else who died in this tragic event. I'm glad that the past 3 years there have been special shows and events to memorialize Sept. 11 because I'm afraid that everyone besides the victims' families have 'gotten over it', in a manner of speaking. I also do not want to make this about othe current events and talk about things that are highly disputable (i.e., the war), but Sept. 11th also reminds me of the fact that we still need to be fighting terrorism...WHEREVER it is. And I don't care whether people believe that we went into Iraq for oil (which is obviously not true) or for supposed WMD's. The fact is that we got a horrible ruler out of office AND have helped a lot of Iraqi's even though the media doesn't show that. And more terrorists have come out the woodworks over there, so we still need to be doing something about it! Do I think our plan wasn't planned out well enough? Yes! We went in w-a-y too fast, made everything look easy, and then wasn't prepared for the rest of the problems we're facing over there. But, I also believe that we should be focusing more on Afghanastan. We don't hear about that fight anymore and it is frustrating that it seems we're no closer to finding Bin Laden and it doesn't make any sense to me that we aren't just a little bit closer at least!
OK, I'll get off my soapbox. The last bit of this blog was not meant to offend anyone who has different opinions. Feel free to respond and leave comments. But, as I say that, if you're one of those people who believe we should bend over and take it up the rear because you believe sticking up for ourselves is "not the answer", then please don't bother.